When you’re feeling inspired by others

Recently I have taken a little more time to sit back and read people’s blog posts rather than sitting here waiting for people to read mine. From this it has given me a positive outlook on what I need to do to benefit myself. Yes it has been a tricky few months for me as you will have seen in previous posts but it is time to turn that around and learn from it.

So far I have two weekends away planned, I’ve finally got weddings to go to as well and not just one, I have three (one I’m a bridesmaid)!! This year I am aiming to go camping a little bit more as it is a fantastic escape route even when it is raining.

I would love to move out – sorry parents but it is time I got my own space so I can decorate it with things I will stare at but will never use. I keep thinking I want to move to a city, probably Nottingham in the end but right now I am going to stay put. The thought of moving out scares me a little but it’s also an exciting adventure and it’s my adventure. There are always a lot of pressures for people in there 20s as Tiffany has pointed out in her recent post and it’s true. I have been in my relationship for four and a half years but so many things have happened during our relationship that has made it impossible for us to live together.

People’s progression through life whether that is work related, adult life related or even a trip abroad has inspired me to look for more. It is often I settle for what’s around me and I shouldn’t. Seeing people travel here there and everywhere makes me want to do the same thing but I stop myself. Why? I think it’s because I fear change and don’t feel like I could adapt in a new job right now. Plus I don’t have any savings anymore thanks to my lovely Kia Ceed car!

I have finally gone back to the gym after kicking myself off my bed! I am so pleased I’m getting back into it and I won’t give up like I have given up with everything else. Here is to a much brighter 2018 and one filled with positivity!

How is your 2018 going so far?

Why am I feeling lonely?

To be honest I am not quite sure why I am writing this post because there’s no reason for me to feel lonely. I have a boyfriend, I live with my incredible family and I have lots of different friends but right now I feel sad about being lonely – weird.

My friends do a hell of a lot for me so I cannot say they’re not there. They are. If I needed to call one of them about something, they’d answer and they’d listen. They wouldn’t care if it’s a boring story or if they’ve heard something similar before, they’d sit and get earache for me. Thank you guys.

In my mind I think I may know why I’m sad a little. Everyone I know has moved on with their lives like we’re all supposed to do but I haven’t changed. I don’t care that I’m not engaged or having a baby as I’m nowhere near ready for that but they’re moving forward and moving on…moving on from being in my life all of the time. I sound like a jealous ex but it’s because I value people’s friendships and I’m sad when they deteriorate. I’m sure you’ve probably felt the same at some point.

I’d say because I’m still living at home I’m wanting to go out with people, wanting to explore what I can and I know when I officially become an adult I’ll be like one of you. It’s kinda scary. I don’t want to be alone or feel alone.

Maybe I need to realise that being nearly 25 means everything changes. People change, the environment changes and friends change I guess (I am not ditching anyone). It’s life but I won’t accept it.

Queen of Bradgate, Leicester

Last night was my first visit to the Queen of Bradgate pub / restaurant in Leicester. My friend and I were looking for somewhere to eat that had cocktails available which this place has – added bonus. As soon as you walk in you are mesmerised by the decor and want to buy everything that’s hanging up on the wall…well I did anyway.

Everybody loves a happy hour don’t they? I tucked into two cocktails (2-4-1) but I can’t remember what they were called but they tasted incredible, it had Collins in the name so look out for that! For my main course I had the Chicken Fillet Burger with the most delicious fries but I was torn between the Wild Mushroom Risotto and the Marinated Chicken so the only way to decide was to eenie meanie, miney mo it. The Chicken Burger won of course and I live life with no regrets because it was exceptionally tasty.

Chicken Fillet Burger and Fries

I had another round of 2-4-1 cocktails before 8pm (cheap date alert) but this time I decided to try something completely different. The French Martini sounded really nice and I loved the art on top of the drink. I think they used a raspberry sauce to draw the pattern and I’d happily have it again. Happy tipsy customer.

Then came dessert! I wasn’t overly mad with the choices on the menu but I went with my favourite Sticky Toffee Pudding. It was a really nice pudding and I know you’ll probably think well it looks a little dry with no custard or ice cream – where is it? I’m not a huge ice cream fan to be honest so I would have preferred to have custard as an option. This wasn’t available so I opted for no ice cream, it was still really enjoyable and very very sticky.
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I would happily visit the Queen of Bradgate again because their menu offers something for everyone and it’s not badly priced either. The atmosphere was great and like I said above the decor is to die for. It’s very well put together and doesn’t look like they’ve purchased everything from a car boot. P.S. I want the stag head light that was on the wall near our table, it was stunning!

I am sorry for being quiet

Quite recently I have taken a step back from blogging and communicating with bloggers on Twitter. You are probably wondering why or you might not care but I know I am not well. A lot of things have been going on at work recently and my dentist has told me I am suffering from anxiety. People have said to me well how does your dentist know? Well I am chewing the insides of my mouth constantly and causing my teeth problems. I am also grinding my teeth and the pain from biting all day is unbearable.

I won’t go into what has happened because I don’t know if people from work will read my blog. To be honest I hope they never do but you never know how much stalking people get up to.

It is a really difficult time for me at the moment and the constant crying at home has gotten out of hand. I promise I will be back but I just need some me time and to try and figure out what’s best for me.

If you’ve ever been in my situation, how did you manage?