Being away helps your mind so go!

As some of you probably know I’m currently in Germany having the most incredible time. I will be writing a post about my trip but for now this is about something else.

I’ll admit I have been struggling a lot recently with stress so I thought let’s run away from it. I ran away. I am so glad I did decide to come on my own because it’s given me lots of thinking time. At first I was terrified of my own thoughts, I envisioned me having a melt down but I actually feel so free. 

The problems I’ve been having in my shoulders and upper back have been liberated. The pain was so bad it made me cry and I had to go for a Indian Head Massage to help relieve the pain – it worked but there were still knots.

I won’t go into what this trip has helped me come to terms with but I am pretty confident I know what the right thing to do is. I almost feel like a new person which is daft because I’m still the same old curly haired glasses nerd but with a weight lifted.

My understanding of bad situations is get yourself out of them. Don’t think I need this or but it’s been like this – just do what you need to do. Don’t hold back, don’t live with regrets. The new year is coming so we know everyone will be saying ‘a new year,  a new me.’ Well may be I’ll be one of those people.

Let’s see.

What I want for my future

I want what every other blogger wants, I want to write full-time. I want to be able to create engaging content and to work with endless brands because writing makes me really happy. There’s just one problem, how can you go from a full time position to a ‘I don’t know what’s going to happen to me next month‘ position. Every full-time job guarantees you a monthly income whereas becoming freelance is a risk taker.

I have always been a bit of a risk taker with my career and choices but right now I haven’t got the balls to just quit my job. I mean I am in a great position to do so because I still live at home so now is the time to take these chances but I am terrified.

How did you become a full time freelancer? I haven’t worked with many brands as you will see on my blog but that’s what my aim is. I won’t pretend I am happy working with a brand if I’m never going to use the product.

Please send me some advice xox

Is doing too much damaging my body?

My life is up and down at the moment because of my health. One day I’m fine and the next my joints feel like they might snap or my mind thinks I haven’t slept for days. It definitely is a weird one and I never know how to describe it when someone asks but my problem is I have taken too much on and it’s making me ill.

What do I do each week?

As I’ve mentioned before I am in a theatre group on a Monday evening, I work Monday to Friday 08:30 – 5pm, I’m learning to play the ukulele, I also work for Avon and have many customers across my town, I’ve joined the gym this week (been twice so far) and finally I have to squeeze Michael (boyfriend) into my ridiculous schedule. I rarely have time to see my friends because I dedicate my time elsewhere and never think of myself.

Being bored is a huge thing I try to avoid. I am not one for staying it, it absolutely infuriates me because it’s such a waste of life however how much is too much? Well at the moment I certainly think it’s too much and I’m disappointed with myself that I’ve sacked off reading books and blogging. It’s kind of like you forget what is important to you but going to theatre and the gym makes me forget about the stress at work. These are my places to zone out and be free.

What’s happened?

I am just an idiot that doesn’t plan days very well but I used to be extremely good with this but since working full-time I feel like I’ve flopped on everything. Blogging and reading was always my number one thing when I was working part-time (plus Michael) and I was so excited to keep doing it. Ideas would pop into my head and I would interact more with the blogging community but I just don’t anymore.

My friends haven’t seen me in weeks because I just don’t have the time or if I have a night free, I just want to be alone. My next trip away is next weekend in Wales with the besties so that’ll give me a chance to chill out and rethink what’s right for me.

Do you take to much on? How do you deal with it?

The endless pressure when in a relationship

So I have been with the other half for nearly four years but he’s been in and out of my life for 10. People often have this expectation that we need to rush into things as we’ve been together for so long but we’re quite happy as we are. We both have no responsibilities and we can enjoy our own space and pretty much do whatever we want, whenever we want.

We’ve found out fairly recently that we’re going to be an auntie and uncle – YAY! Super happy about that and can’t wait to meet him. We were at a party the other day and once it was announced people instantly came up to us and said ‘You two are next, when will it happen?’ My response was it’ll happen in our own time. We get this all of the time and I really don’t know what the rush is? Someone please tell me?

I am not sure why but when you’re in a relationship there is so much pressure to quickly get engaged, move in and have a family. For me, I want to be able to enjoy what selfish time I have, do random things together and be able to have an argument without it affecting our household or family life.

Maybe I’m too laid back but to be honest I am not ready for that, its a huge life change and we’re both on the same wave length. I want to be sure that once I’ve made this step, it is the right one and I don’t want to turn back. I doubt I will want to turn back because I love the guy but people do struggle to adjust to change and I am one of them.

Who else has this to deal with as I can’t be the only one?!

Skin crisis

Recently I have been suffering with lots of spots, well when I say lots I mean a chin and forehead full! I can’t seem to find anything that will help ease the oils and sore spots that I have at the moment.

I have currently been using Avon’s Pore Penetrator which is a mineral face mask to try and dry out my face. The cause is unknown, yes I suffer with heavy sweating but I am not sure if that is to blame for this. However, I do have a side fringe which could be a contender, I am now pinning it back whilst at home to take some of the hair off my face.

If anyone has any tips on how to tackle oily skin and lots of spots, please let me know and I’ll give them a try – willing to review them for people as well.

Thank you xx