What I want for my future

I want what every other blogger wants, I want to write full-time. I want to be able to create engaging content and to work with endless brands because writing makes me really happy. There’s just one problem, how can you go from a full time position to a ‘I don’t know what’s going to happen to me next month‘ position. Every full-time job guarantees you a monthly income whereas becoming freelance is a risk taker.

I have always been a bit of a risk taker with my career and choices but right now I haven’t got the balls to just quit my job. I mean I am in a great position to do so because I still live at home so now is the time to take these chances but I am terrified.

How did you become a full time freelancer? I haven’t worked with many brands as you will see on my blog but that’s what my aim is. I won’t pretend I am happy working with a brand if I’m never going to use the product.

Please send me some advice xox

EU Referendum

June 23rd 2016 was a pretty incredible day as you are all aware however, June 24th history was made. The EU Referendum seems to have caused a lot of conflicting between friends, family members, across social media and even between work colleagues. I did not expect any resignations, I think it’s a shame David Cameron quit to be honest. I mean he’s not my favourite human being but you could see the disappointment in his face during his speech on Friday morning.

The criticism I have received for voting leave has been quite harsh, I am one of the majority that did not choose this decision because of immigration. Some may not believe me but I shall explain anyway…

Within my new job I am now in the marketing department, a team of four and we’re such a good team. Someone I am close to and someone with a high level of talent is German. This lady has bought so much to the company, she’s extremely talented and I am proud to have the opportunity to work alongside her. I have been teaching her English whilst she helps me learn new things (software and publishing) and German. I do not want to be branded a racist nor do I want us to close our borders. What a load of nonsense and for people to say that to me, you have no idea what my views are. Without having this lady in the company, we would still be using really out dated graphics, continuity errors and I would not have met such a fantastic friend.

Oh, guess what? My great nan is also German, full German so I wouldn’t be here without her, so again I’m not a racist like people keep branding the Brexit voters.

Maybe leaving the EU was a mistake, who knows but we have to pull together as a country, as the United Kingdom to make this work. Either way, no one knew what was going to happen but this has opened parliaments eyes to what the British people want. It seems the British public would like to make British laws rather than following the EU laws which I think need updating.

Let us try to stay positive and look forward to what the future has in store for the United Kingdom.

I was inspired

Yesterday whilst I was at work I had a little spare time so I decided to do some research..What was it? Well, as you know I grew an interest in writing scripts due to my university course but this last year I have not written a thing. Maybe that is because I haven’t had to, I haven’t been told to do an assignment and the form of a routine has disappeared. Something changed yesterday, I think I had time to sit back and think about what I want in life despite the many things I have going on inside my head, this is definitely the main one. Although, I know I keep going on about this so it will eventually get boring to read and I’ll get bored of moaning.

There is a Masters degree I have wanted to do for the last two years but it’s finding the money and the time to do it. This degree would change a lot of things for me, it would point me in the direction I need to be a writer. This Masters covers a different variety of writing for many media platforms. There’s only one problem, I haven’t got the time nor the money to study it. There is an option to do it part time but to study for another three years is quite scary, anything could happen in those three years.

I came across some online script writing courses yet they do not give you any qualifications but they give you a lot of guidance. These courses vary in price but the average cost is around £200 which I could afford but it is whether they are worth that. Could I just buy some books instead and learn from them? John Yorke is a big inspiration to many writers and one many should follow.

These are options to consider and these are things I need to look into to make sure I make the correct decision.

What is the right decision?

I am not really sure how I am feeling at the moment, I mean I have everything I could ever ask for, a great guy, a new job, a perfect family (when I say perfect, a wonderful home and people who love me) and I can drive. Plus, I have a great circle of friends despite losing one of them to drugs, sex and continuos partying but that’s besides the point.

Today feels like one of those days where you are supposed to look at your life and ask yourself, ‘what do I really want?’. Thinking about it, I could not give you an answer. It’s funny really, I have many creative talents but do nothing with them because I never put time aside for myself.

Reflecting on life is not something I should be doing at 22, I am a graduate not a middle aged woman regretting every decision I have ever made. Do we ever know when we’re not making the right decision? We don’t, we learn when we are going through the process of it becoming a mistake. How many mistakes does it take until you realise that is what you need to do.

I feel sad but I am not sure why.