What I want for my future

I want what every other blogger wants, I want to write full-time. I want to be able to create engaging content and to work with endless brands because writing makes me really happy. There’s just one problem, how can you go from a full time position to a ‘I don’t know what’s going to happen to me next month‘ position. Every full-time job guarantees you a monthly income whereas becoming freelance is a risk taker.

I have always been a bit of a risk taker with my career and choices but right now I haven’t got the balls to just quit my job. I mean I am in a great position to do so because I still live at home so now is the time to take these chances but I am terrified.

How did you become a full time freelancer? I haven’t worked with many brands as you will see on my blog but that’s what my aim is. I won’t pretend I am happy working with a brand if I’m never going to use the product.

Please send me some advice xox

Is doing too much damaging my body?

My life is up and down at the moment because of my health. One day I’m fine and the next my joints feel like they might snap or my mind thinks I haven’t slept for days. It definitely is a weird one and I never know how to describe it when someone asks but my problem is I have taken too much on and it’s making me ill.

What do I do each week?

As I’ve mentioned before I am in a theatre group on a Monday evening, I work Monday to Friday 08:30 – 5pm, I’m learning to play the ukulele, I also work for Avon and have many customers across my town, I’ve joined the gym this week (been twice so far) and finally I have to squeeze Michael (boyfriend) into my ridiculous schedule. I rarely have time to see my friends because I dedicate my time elsewhere and never think of myself.

Being bored is a huge thing I try to avoid. I am not one for staying it, it absolutely infuriates me because it’s such a waste of life however how much is too much? Well at the moment I certainly think it’s too much and I’m disappointed with myself that I’ve sacked off reading books and blogging. It’s kind of like you forget what is important to you but going to theatre and the gym makes me forget about the stress at work. These are my places to zone out and be free.

What’s happened?

I am just an idiot that doesn’t plan days very well but I used to be extremely good with this but since working full-time I feel like I’ve flopped on everything. Blogging and reading was always my number one thing when I was working part-time (plus Michael) and I was so excited to keep doing it. Ideas would pop into my head and I would interact more with the blogging community but I just don’t anymore.

My friends haven’t seen me in weeks because I just don’t have the time or if I have a night free, I just want to be alone. My next trip away is next weekend in Wales with the besties so that’ll give me a chance to chill out and rethink what’s right for me.

Do you take to much on? How do you deal with it?

Derby Bloggers Brunch

It was my first time ever attending a bloggers meet up because I either live to far away or I’ve got other plans. Derby is around 30 minutes away from me so it’s not too bad to get to. Anyway I’d never met any of the girls that were attending, I’ve only ever tweeted some of them so I was dreading putting names to faces.

One of the many reasons I was looking forward to going was to see an old secondary school bestie of mine. I didn’t know Vanessa had her own blog until I came across her Instagram post and told her to get on Twitter!

Monét put a group together on Twitter so we could all have a little chat before hand and I added Vanessa to the group. This made talking to people a bit easier because some of us were/are strangers to one another. I’m so pleased she was able to come along! I’m so pleased I was able to attend as I was unsure about whether to go or not. Purely for the fact that I do not blog very often and mines a little basic compared to others.

We were late, I missed my train (not happy) and then we had to find our way to Severn restaurant which by the way is BEAUTIFUL! It was daunting walking through those doors because you don’t know what sort of reaction you’ll get when you first walk up to the table. Neither of us knew anyone. I didn’t recognise many faces (sorry) and they probably didn’t recognise me because I’m a fraudster, I don’t wear glasses on my pictures. Hehe.

After we sat down and settled in we got speaking to at least half of the table (sorry I didn’t speak to the other side, the table was very long) and they were all so so friendly. I couldn’t have asked for a nicer bunch of people to spend my first ever poached egg in a restaurant experience with! We all ended up speaking about so many different things but to be honest I think I just waffled on about so much crap. Again, sorry!

I’m looking forward to attending the next #DerbyBloggersBrunch and getting to know these ladies more. I hope to carry on tweeting everyone like I always do and hopefully I can make some really good friends from this.

Thank you to Monét for organising it, Severn restaurant for hosting it with such incredible tasting food and the girls for attending. See you all again soon! Muchos gracias.

 

Slacking on the bloggers front

I never thought I would say that I would flop at blogging but recently I have. So many things have happened in the last two months it has been difficult to keep on top of things. It might be time to sort my shit out and plan what I’m going to write about for a change, I’m kinda a last minute person.

Keep an eye out on what will be featured on here soon 🙂

The endless pressure when in a relationship

So I have been with the other half for nearly four years but he’s been in and out of my life for 10. People often have this expectation that we need to rush into things as we’ve been together for so long but we’re quite happy as we are. We both have no responsibilities and we can enjoy our own space and pretty much do whatever we want, whenever we want.

We’ve found out fairly recently that we’re going to be an auntie and uncle – YAY! Super happy about that and can’t wait to meet him. We were at a party the other day and once it was announced people instantly came up to us and said ‘You two are next, when will it happen?’ My response was it’ll happen in our own time. We get this all of the time and I really don’t know what the rush is? Someone please tell me?

I am not sure why but when you’re in a relationship there is so much pressure to quickly get engaged, move in and have a family. For me, I want to be able to enjoy what selfish time I have, do random things together and be able to have an argument without it affecting our household or family life.

Maybe I’m too laid back but to be honest I am not ready for that, its a huge life change and we’re both on the same wave length. I want to be sure that once I’ve made this step, it is the right one and I don’t want to turn back. I doubt I will want to turn back because I love the guy but people do struggle to adjust to change and I am one of them.

Who else has this to deal with as I can’t be the only one?!

When things get a little hectic

For the last month my life has been full of ups and downs but I am trying to focus on the ups. My blog has been full of negativity recently but this is because this is the only place I express my feelings. Now I need to stop moaning, get on with it and smile! I have so many things planned so far for this year and they’re quite exciting.

I will be writing a review on a musical today so watch out for that.

How to fall asleep without taking tablets

Are you tired and tired of taking pills to help you sleep? Well I have been struggling to sleep for a while now, I’m tired during the day but then when I get into bed I feel like I could stay awake for another hour or two. It starts to take its toll on you, bags are getting darker under my eyes, mood swings and finally, my energy is completely sucked from my body. Yep, if you’ve ticked all of those boxes like me then I may have something that could help you – read on.

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So since joining Avon I have been able to experiment with various products that they sell. I came across the ‘Pillow Sleep Mist’ with the free Avon products I received and now I can’t be without it!

How does it work?

Well I spray it 3-4 times on either side of my pillow and the lavender scent instantly relaxes your mind. For me I have been able to fall asleep within 15-20 minutes of using this rather than an hour later. It has 5 star ratings on the Avon website and I am yet to review it because I have slept all the way through the night. I wake up feeling refreshed and so pleased that I wasn’t disturbed.

If you would like to purchase this, please visit: http://www.avon.uk.com/store/SJSMITH-Shop and type in ‘sleep mist’ in the search bar.