Giving Blood for the first time

Over 3 months ago I signed up to donate blood because I saw several Twitter ads asking for O Negative blood which is me! The day finally arrived and I have not long got back from the donating centre. I have been nervous about donating blood for a while as I am ridiculously squeamish so I have always been put off but today I was ready and drank endless glasses of vimto so nothing went wrong.

I waited and I waited until I was called. The questions were asked, my finger was pricked and I was seated ready to go until…my veins decided to ruin everything. Two nurses had to attempt to bring my veins to the surface but they just couldn’t be bothered to show their blueness.

The feeling of guilt took over. I was constantly apologising to the nurses who look liked they needed a break because time was ticking and the waiting area didn’t seem to decrease in numbers. I felt like I had let a lot of people down that are currently lying in hospital needing a blood transfusion.

So my first experience was unfortunately a negative one because my veins in both arms aren’t visible enough. I have booked again though for three months time so I will be giving my veins a good talking to.

Thank you to all of the staff at the donating centre today, you’re all amazing doing what you’re doing! If you’d like to give blood please visit Blood and get signed up today, you won’t regret it.


How does one get into gardening?

It is rare I come across a 25-year-old that is still living at home with their parents and ends up spending money on their garden. Well for the last few weeks I have been visiting garden centres within Derbyshire and had so much fun. I have always watched Love Your Garden on ITV1 and often felt inspired by the work produced.

We’ve recently replanted our hanging flower baskets at the front of the house and last weekend my dad let me plant a flower bed under the kitchen window. I think having my own projects to work on is really getting me into taking pride in the garden. Gardening has never really been a thing for me as my joints can’t cope with the extra work. Also I cannot stand having mud on my hands or in my nails, it freaks me out.

Flower bed under the window

I think working on the front and back garden with my parents has been such a great experience. We’ve had a lovely time bonding and we’re all coming up with ideas to improve the garden for us all. Who knew I would enjoy spending money on plants more than food? Yep, my bank balance keeps dropping because I’m going to Garden King or Planters at Bretby on the weekends.

Just an FYI pulling 4ft blackberry thistles out of the ground is a wonderful stress reliever even if you do prick your fingers a few times. We’ve cleared so many weeds out and the garden has improved massively! Onwards to the next step in the garden.

Plants in the rockery

Why I have decided to stop drinking alcohol

I have never really been a weekly drinker, a part from when I turned 18 as that was an experience in itself – just get it out of your system. Most of us love to have a drink now and again and who doesn’t love a cocktail evening with friends?

Writing a post like this may put people off wanting to work with me or write guest posts for me but my blog is about being honest to myself and hiding nothing because I am human. If you are wanting to know why I have quit drinking alcohol I guess you should keep reading…

On December 30th I went out with some friends to our local Hungry Horse pub. I ate food like Sensible Sam would do on any occasion and cracked open a bottle of wine called Sam’s Island. Yes Sam’s Island is a wine and I was over the moon one was named after me! First bottle, absolutely fine, I felt normal, I remember drinking it and remember everything we did. J’ai fini.

Now I ended up getting myself into the danger zone by buying a second bottle of Sam’s Island. It went okay until the second half of the bottle – what happened? I don’t know what happened. This is where I have absolutely terrified myself because anything could have happened to me and I wouldn’t be able to tell you if it was true or not. I could have been hit by a car and I would only know from injuries not by memories.

I woke up on New Years Eve still drunk and I had slept for hours, what an embarrassment. I had no idea how I got home, I had no idea what time I got in or where we ended up after the pub. This really put things into perspective and I had the worst hangover. I had the shakes, a temperature, I couldn’t walk properly. It just didn’t seem to feel like anything I have ever experienced before.

Since December 31st I have not had a drop of alcohol and although when everyone else is drunk around you and you’re sober you kind of get left out, I don’t care, I am safe. I told myself I will not have any alcohol until January 1st 2019 but at this rate, I have no interest in drinking.

People have said I’m mad but I’m not, I’m sticking to my guns and stopping myself from getting in that mess ever again. Some have asked if I was spiked but I don’t know and it is sad if that did happen to me but right now I’m happy with the way I am.

Me with Sam's Island wine


How does it feel turning 25?

So my 25th birthday was approaching and it was the day I was dreading. The day when you can no longer tick 18-24 boxes, you’re in your mid twenties and what you’re 25 and still live at home? Happy 2nd February for me! It is daunting because I always said I would probably have children by the time I was 25 – oh how I laugh at myself now. That’s not going to happen any time soon as I feel like I still have so much to do in my life before I can no longer be selfish. When I say selfish, I mean an adult.

There are quite a few negatives to being 25 (mainly the tick boxes issue) but let’s look at the positives.

I have always wanted afternoon tea because it is more sophisticated and ‘grown up’ so that’s what I decided to do. I absolutely loved afternoon tea at the Lakeside Bistro and it was only £13.95 each! It was nice to do something completely different and the food tasted great minus the egg sandwiches. It was a shame the table was set out in a line because it made it quite difficult speaking to people. So apologies if I didn’t get to speak to you that much!

What are the bonuses of being 25?

  • I’m no longer classed as a young driver so my insurance should hopefully drop for the summer!
  • People take you more seriously, you’ve got a few years of experience behind you so you can tackle things.
  • Your friends are starting to get married – weddings galore yay!
  • It is okay to stay in and watch Netflix because you can’t handle it like you used to.

I am struggling to think of more so if you’ve turned 25 what have been your highlights?

When you’re feeling inspired by others

Recently I have taken a little more time to sit back and read people’s blog posts rather than sitting here waiting for people to read mine. From this it has given me a positive outlook on what I need to do to benefit myself. Yes it has been a tricky few months for me as you will have seen in previous posts but it is time to turn that around and learn from it.

So far I have two weekends away planned, I’ve finally got weddings to go to as well and not just one, I have three (one I’m a bridesmaid)!! This year I am aiming to go camping a little bit more as it is a fantastic escape route even when it is raining.

I would love to move out – sorry parents but it is time I got my own space so I can decorate it with things I will stare at but will never use. I keep thinking I want to move to a city, probably Nottingham in the end but right now I am going to stay put. The thought of moving out scares me a little but it’s also an exciting adventure and it’s my adventure. There are always a lot of pressures for people in there 20s as Tiffany has pointed out in her recent post and it’s true. I have been in my relationship for four and a half years but so many things have happened during our relationship that has made it impossible for us to live together.

People’s progression through life whether that is work related, adult life related or even a trip abroad has inspired me to look for more. It is often I settle for what’s around me and I shouldn’t. Seeing people travel here there and everywhere makes me want to do the same thing but I stop myself. Why? I think it’s because I fear change and don’t feel like I could adapt in a new job right now. Plus I don’t have any savings anymore thanks to my lovely Kia Ceed car!

I have finally gone back to the gym after kicking myself off my bed! I am so pleased I’m getting back into it and I won’t give up like I have given up with everything else. Here is to a much brighter 2018 and one filled with positivity!

How is your 2018 going so far?

My resolutions for 2018

2017 was a pretty crazy year for me with ups and downs every week. I can’t say I did anything outstanding (I actually bought my own car) but I took a few trips here and there and slept in a tent through Storm Brian! It was a fun year, I got to attend my first blogging event which was brilliant as I have met so many wonderful people from it. The list could go on about what I did last year but it’s time to focus on what is happening now.

For this year I want big things to happen for me and when I say big things, I mean adult things! So what are they?

  • It’s time to move out so renting will 100% be the answer to this
  • Renew my National Trust membership and make the most of it
  • Giving up alcohol until January 1st 2019
  • Lose weight (every year)
  • Camp a few weekends over the summer (two trips booked so far)
  • Meet more friends using the Bumble app
  • Socialise a lot more
  • Taking trips to cities as I don’t explore them enough
  • Learn to play my ukulele
  • Improve my French
  • Read and review lots of books (Goodreads target is 25)

There are probably more to think of but I guess these are maybe seen as goals rather than resolutions. I am quite excited for what this year has to offer and I will be becoming more organised to achieve it all. No more sitting around staring at a blank TV, let’s get my act together and do this!

What are your plans for this year? 

Why am I feeling lonely?

To be honest I am not quite sure why I am writing this post because there’s no reason for me to feel lonely. I have a boyfriend, I live with my incredible family and I have lots of different friends but right now I feel sad about being lonely – weird.

My friends do a hell of a lot for me so I cannot say they’re not there. They are. If I needed to call one of them about something, they’d answer and they’d listen. They wouldn’t care if it’s a boring story or if they’ve heard something similar before, they’d sit and get earache for me. Thank you guys.

In my mind I think I may know why I’m sad a little. Everyone I know has moved on with their lives like we’re all supposed to do but I haven’t changed. I don’t care that I’m not engaged or having a baby as I’m nowhere near ready for that but they’re moving forward and moving on…moving on from being in my life all of the time. I sound like a jealous ex but it’s because I value people’s friendships and I’m sad when they deteriorate. I’m sure you’ve probably felt the same at some point.

I’d say because I’m still living at home I’m wanting to go out with people, wanting to explore what I can and I know when I officially become an adult I’ll be like one of you. It’s kinda scary. I don’t want to be alone or feel alone.

Maybe I need to realise that being nearly 25 means everything changes. People change, the environment changes and friends change I guess (I am not ditching anyone). It’s life but I won’t accept it.